Being around others. You build up forts and dynasties. But everything falls apart in the end, and you feel lost and alone.
This is why you need the personal love. The baseline. The improvement behind closed doors that no one else sees. This is why you need to be better and better, independent of them. Because they should be coming after you.
At your current point, you still chase by default. You see value and feel the need to crave and earn it. This should not be the case. Your echelon should catch eyes and attract intelligent minds.
If they don’t care about you, why should you care about them?
Enough giving.
You’ve earned the right to take for a while.
When everything falls apart, you should still have a castle to stand upon.
/////
Don’t feel like you always owe everything to everyone. Make yourself a valuable person, so that you don’t have to prove it, and people will start to chase you instead.
/////
There is a reason why we need to do all of this.
I talk a big game. I’m really good at finding flaws in people, and I’m harsh with judging the looks of others, valuing natural beauty and proportions far more than additions like jewellery, tattoos, makeup and decorated outfits.
But I’m a bit of a hypocrite.
Come on, I’m no supermodel. I’ve barely been working on my natural appearance. I was even trying to go for a type of fashion that makes up for it with accessories and decorations. Who am I to judge others for this, when I’d get torn to shreds by my own words?
I either need to settle for vast imperfections, or I need to start proving that I’m worth more than them.
Justify your high standards.